Exposed...(Round 3 blog, part 2)

How do you handle conflicts?
Well, to be completely honest, I avoid handling conflicts until it turns to big, that I can no longer avoid it. Obviously, this is not very effective, but I just don’t know how to handle them any other way– I try to make the best of situations until they dissolve into nothing, or get so out of control that I can no longer handle them. So I guess that would make me the kind of person that kind of runs away from issues? I know that’s not good, but it’s the truth. I wish I could discipline myself to handle things differently–maybe one day I will.

Biggest problem you face:
It’s really hard to narrow it down to just one...But, in this very moment one of the biggest problems I’m facing is how much of myself to put out here on this site. I have been through a lot of things in my life, and I know I put on a big smile and great act but the things I could tell you all would even put the men in tears- so how much of my personal life am I willing to divulge for this? It’s really tearing me apart, when I wrote my last blog I was almost crying, and I’m extremely nervous for the question “What is one thing your family and friends would be really shocked to learn about you if you were on TV?” Because if I make it to the next round and have to answer that ....well...

What do you what to be on the Real World?
The Real World is this amazing reality show that millions of Americans tune in to watch once a week, so they can follow the lives of these 7 people- and relate to them, cry with them, laugh with them and learn from them. I want America to see (me) someone who comes from a small town in Ohio, a place typically associated with farms and fields, and show them that coming from a place with little or no opportunity does not limit how BIG you can dream, and the steps you can take to achieve your dreams. I’m at a good place in my life right now, where I have a comfortable routine, but am craving something more. I have nothing serious holding me back, and I’m ready for a change, I’m ready for this once in a life time experience that most people don’t get the chance to have! This could be the break I need to get into a fun, successful journalism career, and with the help of the amazing votes and MTV producers this small town girl just might get her big wish ;)

Do you drink alcohol?
In high school I used to drink a lot– in fact I would drink and party so much that I rarely came home. I always felt like I didn’t really have a “home” because my house was always empty, so I spent all my time hanging out with my friends and drinking. My favorite drink is Jack and coke- I’m definitely a whiskey girl. But, when I came to college, all of that changed. I moved out on my own and had to learn RESPONSIBILITY. I knew that I could either a.) take the drinking/partying route and barely graduate or I could b.) Study, attend all my classes, work hard, graduate at the top of my class and go to one of the best graduate colleges in the nation- so the choice was obviously, although not easy. I’m a fun person, and I love to socialize, but the most important thing to me right now is becoming something, and “drinking” will not help me become anything. When intoxicated I usually get emotional & silly- I’ll laugh, cry, dance, rap (yes this is embarrassing, I actually have it on tape). Drinking makes me carefree, as I’m sure it does a lot of people. It’s hard for me now because I drink so sporadically so I never know what my tolerance level is- and sometimes I definitely get carried away. However, I am always surrounded by people who I love and care about- not random creepy guys, so I never have to worry about anyone trying to take advantage of me.

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