The Battle Within Myself: Conflict

How do I handle conflict? to be blunt, bad. I don't handle conflict in the most effective way but, I try to better myself and learn more effective ways of handling it. When I am approached with an argument if, it has nothing to do with me I will sit and listen. I will nod my head a few times pretending to care and feel sympathetic. I will then try to give you advice as to how you could resolve the issue without bloodshed. If you approach me with a problem that you have with me, then we are on to something. If someone has a problem with me I usually over react and go about solving it the incorrect way. I usually let my inner thoughts get the best of me. I let the red devil control my every move and usually make things worse. If I could just find a way to control the little red head dangling over my shoulder I could probably save a lot of friendships. I have somewhat of an anger problem. I dont physically show it but when someone makes me mad, I plot very mean things that I could do to that person to get back at them. I am very spiteful and hold grudges until the other person ceases to continue. I know there are better ways to handling a situation like sitting down and compromising. Yeah right!? who does that? I will cut them down until I end up victorious.

Another problem dealing with conflict that I notice I have is arguments. I tend to start arguments over very simple things. My friends usually know not to argue with me because no matter how hard you try. You will not win. I will argue until the next day, even if my side is completely wrong, I will still defend it with my life. This has really gotten to me lately especially after I can notice myself doing it all the time. When someone tells you that you act a certain way, or do certain things you begin to catch yourself in the middle and realize, Wow he was right! I am trying hard to learn from the advice I have gotten from my friends and better handle myself in different situations without blowing up over nothing.

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